I am so excited I can't sleep.
Mary woke me last night shortly after I had fallen asleep at her side and she told me that it was time. I instantly came awake and I could feel my heart beating in my chest. It felt as if it wanted to escape and fly away.
Mary smiled as she put her small hand on my arm and gave me that smile that brings instant peace to my mind and soul. She guided me to help as best as I could through the birthing process. I felt so helpless, but she never seemed to lose confidence in me.
It wasn't a difficult birth, but it was so much work for Mary. All I could do was comfort her with my presence and my words. I would occasionally put a cloth into a bucket of water meant for the animals so I could wipe her brow. In between each bout of pain, Mary would look at me and I could see so much confidence in her eyes. I don't know where that confidence comes from, but it touched me deep in my soul.
Every once in awhile Mary would look to the stable door and see the concerned faces of the donkeys and sheep and she would laugh. She said that if her family could not be there with her, they would do.
Finally, our son, Jesus, was born. I handed him to Mary and in that moment it felt as if time stood still for an eternity. As she looked at Jesus, Mary's eyes held something that I had never seen before. It was if she was looking into the future and her eyes showed both joy and pain. It was too much for my simple mind to comprehend.
Mary nursed Jesus for a time and he quickly went to sleep. Mary wrapped him in some swaddling clothes that she had brought. She handed him to me with that same look of confidence even though I felt so incredibly incompetent to hold this bundle of new life.
For a moment I held my new son. Even though he was not conceived in the way I had expected, he was still my son. I felt the warmth of tears as they coursed down my cheeks and I could taste their saltiness as they leaked into my lips.
I turned and placed Jesus into the manger and arranged the hay around him so he would be warm. As I turned back, Mary was already asleep. I quietly added some more twigs to our small fire. The fire added a little warmth to our cave, but we had all the light we needed from the reflected light of that bright star.
Now that Jesus was born, the donkeys and sheep resumed their contented munching. Whatever they were looking for must have come.
I think I may have dozed when I heard some commotion from outside. I jumped to my feet concerned that it might be some travelers who might try to take our place for the night. The donkeys and sheep expressed their displeasure as they were shuffled aside by several figures who came from the dark of the night into the starlight.
I quickly realized these were not travelers. They were rough men - most old and a few barely old enough to grow a few hairs on their chins. They timidly approached the opening to our cave and peered in. I asked them what they wanted and, to my surprise, they said, "We came to see the child."
By this time Mary was awake, but there was neither fear nor concern on her face. It was as if she had expected these strangers who came in the dark of the night. She invited them to come in and see Jesus.
They awkwardly came in and, with wary glances at us, they approached the manger where our Jesus lay asleep. As they came into his presence, the oldest of the group fell to his knees and, in short order, so did the others. They quietly stared at our son.
After what may have been minutes or hours, they finally left their postures of worship and asked if they could tell us what had happened to them that night. Before I could say anything, Mary said, "Of course. Please tell us."

Several started babbling at once and finally the older man forcefully said, "Hold it. I will tell the story. Keep your silence." Then his face went from stern to gentle as he turned toward Mary and he said, "We are simple shepherds and we were watching over our flocks this night as we have done for countless nights. Until tonight, every night has been the same. However, this night, even our youngest one here noticed the stars seemed brighter and more numerous than ever before. When suddenly we all realized that the stars were getting brighter and brighter and brighter and more and more numerous. We had to shield our eyes from the growing brightness and our hearts were beginning to fill with fear."
Then the youngest one suddenly said, "They were angels!" The older one put on his stern look again and the youngster quickly returned to his place. The older one continued, "Yes, they were angels - so many we couldn't count them. A voice from amongst them said, 'Fear not' and our hearts were filled with a peace that we still can't understand. They said they were bringing us good news that a child, a savior, was being born in the City of David and we were to go see him."
After a moment of returning his gaze to the baby Jesus, the old man said his last words, "We don't understand any of this, but I feel the same incredible peace in my heart as I gaze upon your son as I did when the angel said, 'Fear not.'" The other shepherds all shook their heads in confirmation of the older shepherd's words.
After a time they silently departed to return to watching their sheep. Mary and I looked at each other in wonder. There were no words to describe what had just happened. We both just accepted it. Mary had a way of tucking things away in her heart to ponder later. Finally, she returned to her sleep.
I walked to our cave entrance, still too excited to sleep. The star has moved slightly so it's not as bright in front of our cave. To the East the faint glow of pre-dawn is creeping up into the darkness. A few new cooking fires are flaring up in the city below as women rise early to begin the day's cooking. A rooster crows to greet the impending dawn.
It's another day, but somewhere deep in my heart I know that this day, and every day that follows, will be different.
Betty and I wish you all a very Merry Christmas. We hope that the celebration of the birth of our Savior Jesus will help bring a rebirth of His presence into your hearts and lives.
See you on Monday, December 29!